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“Killing Chickens”
This essay goes into detail about a woman’s feelings of anger, sadness, guilt and shame. A married couple that was sadly interrupted by a man’s lust, deception and neglectfulness, the woman uses her anger to continue going about life but never in front of their children. She fears that they know, and that mom and dad aren’t getting along lately. The feelings she was dealing with, were all greatly expressed in detail by her writing. She took the time to incorporate descriptive words, allowing the reader to visualize her anger and sadness.
One specific detail we could get from her emotions was, the paragraph where she tells us that her brother found her husband cheating on her with his wife. On the top of my head, that already explained to me anger and sadness, because no one expects their partner in which they exchanged vows with to just betray everything they said, “till death do us part”, “in sickness in health”, it makes a person think, were they ever telling the truth? In the beginning of her writing, she creates a gruesome image of killing hens from her coop. She states, “…struggling to be free of my weight, my gloved hands, my need to kill her.” this describe an emotion that was intense, it was on purpose and it held weight to me as the reader. I could feel her anger as she used the words “my need to kill her”, it expressed the emotion and her feelings that bled through her mind into her actions against the hens she is supposed to kill to eat. That anger for being lied to, that anger of feeling not worthy and the feeling of her husband, partner for life, had betrayed their family and it will forever leave a mark. The last detail I thought really expressed the importance of her memoir was when she was talking to her children and they asked if their dad was going to attend her birthday, that it seemed as though he’d forgotten as he stormed out the door. She explained that, “Guilt and fear tugged me like an undertow.” and then she tells them she doesn’t know. This really ties into that topic of feeling like she was betrayed, they were all betrayed and robbed of a happy life that was supposed to last a lifetime. The universal meaning that I got was that, when you’re lied to and betrayed for so long that anger builds up and becomes resentment. Resentment is a really powerful emotion that makes a person feel utmost rage and fury along with sadness and guilt, it’s a tidal wave of suppressed feelings that come out whenever they’re triggered or when it becomes too much. It breaks up a family, it breaks up a love that was once soft and becomes rough.
I chose to write about this one because you would never want your future husband or current husband to cheat on you, especially with someone as close to you as your bestfriend and sister in law. This gave me an opportunity to write about my life with so much detail and much attention to how I would word my sentences.